Selamat Hari Raya Peepz!

This year Ramadhan,

Im disappointed in myself

that I was not able to use it

to the fullest for my Ibadah.

I slacked.

I know being in NS is not a good excuse

but I did try.

So today after subuh prayers,

I prayed to god

asking him please let me learn something

or benefit something from this year's Ramadhan

so I can be a better person in his eyes.

Every year buka puasa for last day of Ramadhan would be at my aunts place. So i made my way with my bro on our bikes. My bro suggested goin by PIE. Goshh... I never went there by PIE before.. I always used TPE. Klaaa... Juz follow him should be fine.

So somewhere around the Balestier exit... I was crusing my vespa on the first lane travelling pretty fast in between cars when suddenly this TA200 potong my jalan. OMG!

PULL THE BRAKES!

NOT ENOUGH TIME!

GONNA HIT THE BIKE!

REAR WHEEL SKID!

FISHTAIL!
CARS BESIDE ME!
BIKE SLIDES TO THE SIDE!
LET GO OF MY BIKE!
ROLL... ROLL. ROLL...
OH MY GOD! GOTTA PROTECT MYSELF

LAY IN BETWEEN LANES

NOW IM SLIDING ON MY BACK.

HANDS CROSS INFRONT OF MY CHEST

STOP SLIDING...

THE BREEZE AND SCREECH OF A CAR THAT WHIZZES PAST MY LEFT SHOULDER

I FROZE

Three bikes went down with me. A RXZ and a pulsar. Shit.. i have to pay for their damages. It wasnt my fault but i was too shaken up to argue.

After it was all done i made my way to my aunts place. As i open the door, the takbir surrounds the room. And i saw my entire family breaking fast all happy. Im was so grateful to see them.. I couldnt say a word. I cried.

What went through my mind was that if Allah didnt save me, the mood around the dinner table would be different. The mood for this raya would be different.

I thank god for giving me a chance to live and for my safe well being. I thank god for answering my prayers. On this eve of Hari Raya, the last day of Ramadhan, I have indeed felt a positive change in me. The experience woke me up. I am grateful for my family, my body, my mind, my rezeki. I am grateful for everything Allah has given me. I regret for each time I wasted my time.

Subhanallah.

Thank you Allah.

On another note, to whom it may concern... I miss you.

Selamat Hari Raya Peepz!